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SPIRIT OF COURAGE

Rich Love — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 21:27:22 +0000

Everyone cries sometimes
When your world has gone cold and hopes are low
Everyone cries sometimes
When your life is on hold and troubles overflow

You can cry when you’re happy
You can cry when you’re sad
It’s a natural emotion we all have had

Everyone cries sometimes
When yours friends fade away and love is strange
Everyone cries sometimes
When your mind wants to stray to avoid change

You can cry when you’re happy
You can cry when you’re sad
It’s a natural feeling we’re allowed to have

4:11 beyond the dawn a silent VOICE IS
Once a boy now a man forevermore IS

You can cry when you’re happy
You can cry when you’re sad
It’s a natural emotion we all must have

11-24-11 – RICH LOVE, INC.

OUR GARDEN

Rich Love — Fri, 11 Nov 2011 15:35:53 +0000

I had to turn back

The patterns of frequencies

By flying off the handle

So I could be considered normal

Just as a puppy learns

To make extravagant claims

I try to meditate

Through the patterns “that” frustrate

Like a constant storm

I navigate conditioned impulses

Slowing these rockets falling

With soothing music so compelling

Our revealed garden

Sparks chirping bird’s hearts

Flowers dance in this landscape

And romance has found a new escape

11-12-11

This was written at HCMC on 11-1-11 when I went back to give LOVE to hospital. Don’t worry – I knew what He was doing through me this time.

Hey Anna Love,

I LOVE YOU!!!

He Went To Jared

Rich Love — Sun, 02 Oct 2011 02:36:37 +0000

I was in a hurry the moment I met her in more ways then one. I even filled my car up with a full tank of kerosene at the gas station by mistake rushing to spend another day with who I thought was to be the love of my life. Violet Starr was the most beautiful troubled woman I had ever wanted to be with and I went to great lengths showing her how deeply I needed to be loved by her. This was no ordinary love, but in the end all of my infatuation and obsession to rescue this damsel in distress was really the spring point of reinventing me to be a better man in my future relationships.
My love or what I thought was true love for this thin 26 year old blue-eyed blonde had me in a whirlwind of chaos and complete desperateness to receive her kiss. It was never about getting laid for me because for two years this 35 year old lost puppy of a man followed her around without ever mentioning having sex with her. I was ready to begin a change in my life and when her 10 month old baby daughter called me daddy for the first time, my heart just melted and the first signs of becoming too happy began to show to family and friends around me at the time.
The first time I met Violet was when a buddy of mine made a call to score us some speed. She jumped into the back seat of my borrowed Grand Voyager to party with us and immediately our eyes locked together in the rear-view mirror as I drove and listened to her soul. It wasn’t long after until we would spend every moment together getting high and talking about quitting meth. We shared something in common when it came to freeing our spirits from this horrible drug. I was the only drug addict friend that was allowed to spend time over at her parent’s home where she lived on Grey Cloud Island in Cottage Grove, Minnesota and I was allowed a few sleepovers as long as we were in separate rooms. This really was Violet’s choice since her heart belonged to little Anne’s biological father who had beaten Violet severely months prior to me meeting her. He had left her for dead in a ditch on the side of a dirt road, yet she always continued to be drawn to him on and off throughout our duration. I wish I could say relationship, but no matter how much she appeared to have some love for me, it was always somewhat clear to me that I would only be the nice guy that finishes last. The in-between guy her parent’s wanted her to be with and maybe marry someday.
Her parents approved of me over the other riffraff that would sneak around to Violet’s back door maybe because after twenty years of working in the security field and mowing their lawn now and then, I showed them the same respect as I did to the public I worked for to make a decent living. Over time, I’ve learned that you really can’t have it both ways if you want your love to be true. It wasn’t until a social service worker took Violet’s sweet baby away that we needed to make a serious change in our lives to get Anne back and we did. Violet ended up in a Teen Challenge program for addicts and I went back to my life clean and sober thinking I would never heard from her again. That happiness I had being with her never faded even to this day, but I knew I had to stay focused on something good like staying on the straight and narrow. I kept the fate that we’d be together again someday without drugs and the cesspool of drug addict people we used to hang out with.
I was going on six months drug-free when the phone rang on New Year’s Eve, 2005. Violet drove over with an old beat-up car leaking gas with Anne and her first child, Tommy, a ten year old boy that took a liking to me she had with her high school sweetheart that had died from having a small heart. Doctor’s cancelled this young man’s heart transplant when they discovered marijuana in his system. I think that was when Violet’s life really began to take a turn for the worse and it wasn’t my place to fix it, but I tried anyways by being her best friend again, but sober this time. I even gave her my fairly new car my parents helped me buy since I was still being enabled at my age. Then my grandmother who loved Violet and her kids very much gave me her vehicle the Grand Voyager when she learned what I did for Violet. This caused a huge riff within my family which didn’t seem to bother me at all because I was extremely happier than ever having Violet back to some degree.
When I awoke the next morning on New Year’s Day after spending the evening at Camp Snoopy at the Mall of America with Violet and the kids, I knew something was different with me. Besides having the most vivid amazing dream in my life that lead me to posting pictures from magazines and cutting out positive power words within them including hanging up songs and poetry I wrote there was an ineffable energy flowing through me beyond any drug I had ever taken. Violet thought I was getting high again and so did the police when my mother had called them. Three weeks into that eccentric January of my life, I was told by doctors that I was too happy. The so-called medical term was bipolar disorder and they told me I would crash so I was given by force dangerous medications which drove me completely insane. I was in and out of psychiatric care for the following year fighting the system and losing touch with everyone around me including the woman of my dreams. My happiest day in my life was no longer meeting Violet; it was winning one of three court cases against my well-being and the fraud of psychiatry. To this day, I blame no one for what happened to me including myself. Things happen for a reason and there are people we meet along the way.
It took me some time to calm down enough without force meds to reconnect with Violet. Time had passed and she put on a lot of weight which didn’t bother me at all. I had been heavy most of my own life so I accepted and loved her unconditionally. I knew I wanted to be with her and grow old together raising her children. After my extraordinary experience and ordeal, my credit score was starting to get affected from defaulting on credit cards mainly from being locked up in a psych ward for three months without working or paying bills. The only card that I hadn’t been using to live off of through this madness and still had seven grand on it was the galleria of jewelry – my Jared credit line.
I picked out the biggest diamond ring nearly maxing out my Jared card and raced over to Violet’s new apartment the social service worker helped her get. I was very excited with what I was about to do, but I remained calm and waited until after we had dinner. Violet was washing the dishes and I was coloring with little Anne on the floor in the living room when I decided to go for it. I gave Anne the jewelry box with the ring in it and told her to give this to mommy. A few moments passed in dead silence. I got up and went to the kitchen getting down on one knee. Before I could even ask if Violet would marry me, she informed me of her pregnancy with Anne’s father and would have another girl.
After hours of tears and a sleepless night, I went back to the Jared Jewelry store the next day to return the item purchased. They were very nice to me and even mailed me a sympathy card later that week. If it wasn’t for my experience with Violet Starr years ago, I would have never paid $300 to get my gas tank drained of kerosene fuel oil. This may be a certain level of love most people would regret, but not for me. It’s just the beginning for more love to spring spontaneously from within.

2012 – Actor Rich Love Coming Soon!
www.doyoufeartheunknown.com (VOICE)

Karma

Rich Love — Sat, 16 Jul 2011 15:36:54 +0000

My heart has a feeling
To do good for others
Because someday it will all come back

It may take a day
It could even be a decade
But I’ll never stray too far

So please hold me close Lord
Show me your ways
And allow me to breathe another day

***Written after watching “My Name Is Earl” the one where he crosses off number one from his list. LOL

Goodbye My Friend

Rich Love — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 23:57:58 +0000

Do you know how much I miss you my friend
We had a love most couldn’t comprehend

You will always be in my heart
You were there from the start
Now you’re long gone
And I have to carry on

The waves of time are passing by through my tears
But I have learned to just let go of all my fears

Goodbye my friend we had some fun
And we will always be together as one
I will never forget you or the love we shared
And how much you cared you were always there

You will always be in my heart
You were there from the start
Now you’re long gone
And I have to carry on, I have to carry on

I sing this song to you with my heart
And now I say to you goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

Goodbye my friend

A Note:
I took care of my grandmother against family wishes so she could live at home before her death. I ended up in hospital from the pressure of family and the stress from doctors. This is a goodbye poem to granny and my mom as well. My mom chose not to make peace with her mother so now we won’t have that… maybe in the next life my mother and family will realize my love was never about grandmother’s money.

It’s Another Day

Rich Love — Mon, 08 Dec 2008 00:38:39 +0000

It’s another day
I can happily say
It’s another day
And I feel okay

There’s nothing you can do
To change my point of view

I’m feeling like I fit into a plan
I know I’ve been a desperate man

It seems like the sun is shining only for me
I know I can move across the deep blue sea

It’s another day
I just want to play
It’s another day
Feels like a holiday

There’s someone watching over me
When I’m not able to see

I’m feeling like I fit into a plan
I know I’ve been a desperate man

It seems like my world is coming together
I know I can brave any bad weather

It’s another day
I can happily say
It’s another day
And I feel okay

Cenovia

Rich Love — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 23:18:59 +0000

Cenovia how I wondered if I would see you again
Cenovia how I wondered if I could ever explain

I lost your contact when I failed to call back
But when I saw you again nothing had changed oh no
You were the same so sweet

Cenovia you are who I’ve been waiting for
Cenovia we can let love open the door

I will hold you close and never let you go
I will always be your loving man oh yeah
Your biggest fan

“Dedicated to the only woman who truly believes in me.”
“I love you and your children with all of my heart always and forever.”

Everyone Cries Sometimes

Rich Love — Thu, 18 Sep 2008 23:53:37 +0000

Everyone cries sometimes
When your world has gone cold and hopes are low
Everyone cries sometimes
When your life is on hold and troubles overflow

You can cry when you’re happy
You can cry when you’re sad
It’s a natural emotion we all have had

Everyone cries sometimes
When your friends fade away and love is strange
Everyone cries sometimes
When your mind wants to stray to avoid change

You can cry when you’re happy
You can cry when you’re sad
It’s a natural feeling we all have had

Early in the morning the dream comes alive
People in motion living day by day
Love creates the universe for our souls to strive
People working together finding a better way

It’s all right, it will be all right
It’s all right, we’ll be just fine (Come on, come on, come on)
Join together as brothers and sisters (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Change the world, we can do this together

Everyone cries sometimes
When the news is tragic and filled with death
Everyone cries sometimes
When your heart aches as you take the last breath

You can cry when you’re happy
You can cry when you’re sad
It’s a natural emotion we all have had

This is my first written song with music after turning 40 last week and I didn’t cry on my birthday. I’m very happy with my life and the direction it’s going.

Bad Love Song

Rich Love — Wed, 30 Jul 2008 21:29:01 +0000

I know nothing about you
I know nothing about you

She opened the door and I started the engine
I looked in the rear view mirror and I listened

Bad love at first sight
Bad love at first sight

I thought I knew something about you
I thought I knew something about you

I should have heard the people around me
Her using ways were reserved for another
I gave her my car as a desperate plea
Never imagined my giving love for a mother

Bad love black as night
Bad love black as night

I loved you endlessly
I loved you like a fool
You kept me hanging
Until I lost my cool

I know nothing about you
I know nothing about you

Blind Disguises

Rich Love — Thu, 12 Jun 2008 22:20:38 +0000

Blind disguises within those empty eyes
Blind disguises never realizing

Is it one of your lines
That you use on me
Is it just one last time
For you to leave me blind

Blind disguises within those empty eyes
Blind disguises within those cold eyes
Blind disguises within those empty eyes
Blind disguises never realizing

One of the first teenage tunes I wrote when I blame girls for my troubles.

Through You

Rich Love — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 01:08:53 +0000

My walls are closing in
It’s time to begin
When I offer my imperfections
My life can begin

Did you find your place in life
Did you explore your dreams
Or were you running too fast
Experiencing a world of extremes

Love flows through you
I receive love through you

The Sound

Rich Love — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 01:06:16 +0000

I can’t believe my eyes
Distorted views decay within
In a world of vanity
How does love stand again

It seems like I’m sinking deep
Drowning in the sea
And every time I try to rise
I’m down on my knees

Children ride bicycles in busy streets
Without traffic lights
We keep spinning around
Waiting here to ignite

It seems like I’m falling fast
Rocks are crashing down
And every time I try to stand
I here the sound

This was written during my drug days so I had to think about this one before posting it. I think what it says to me is that no matter how bad things appeared on the outside, inside on the back burner God’s calling was loud enough for me to hear. Twenty-five years later His voice has become clearer as I open my heart to others.

Queen Without A King

Rich Love — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 00:53:00 +0000

She’s always talking about everyone else
She’s a little too prefect too good for herself
Her life is a palace she knows everything
And I know that’s why I’m not her king

She’s a queen she’s searching
She’s a queen without a king

She lives a queen’s life with who she’ll choose
Just when she’s winning that once more to loose
She’ll dream of another, she’ll fantasize
For someone to be there and dry her eyes

(When she cries)

She’s a queen she’s waiting
She’s a queen without a king

Highway Standoff

Rich Love — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 00:29:30 +0000

Live with details and blown out tires
Thank God there were no casualties
Pour out your feelings driver
We don’t want your big story
It’s the second time this week
Another highway standoff

Why can’t you tell me what you really want from me
Sometimes I feel the need to escape somewhere beyond the sun
Somewhere beyond all this I see

Downhill

Rich Love — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 23:34:29 +0000

People taking chances without any rhythm or reason
I can’t help from wondering if every day is a big story
Living gets harder by the moment when you’re going downhill
It takes all I have not to lose myself in worry

I’ve been up and down round and round
And when I believe to understand things
I’m the farthest from the truth

Every day seems the same as yesterday
Sometimes I can’t help from feeling angry with today

I’ve been coasting downhill living wild
I think about the choices I’ve made and the damage done
I’m just coasting along

There’s a child inside and he likes to hide
Don’t know why I act like an imbecile
I’m further from the truth than ever before

It’s downhill from here on out
But I’m not letting it ruin my tomorrow
And every time I think I’m ahead
I’m further behind than ever before

I’m living for tomorrow
And slowly changing the choices I made today
By being here now.

The sun is always shining behind the clouds. In my twenties I always knew how to think from the end even during my lowest point. I’ve always wanted more for others than wanting for myself even if I appeared self-centered at times. It was the only process I knew how to change my life and street drugs helped in that journey of self-discovery. Begin to see the good in the bad and learn to be an appreciator of all walks of life.

Imagination is more important than knowledge.
-A.E

Dream Within A Dream

Rich Love — Sun, 08 Jun 2008 23:37:14 +0000

It was nearing sunset
Somewhere in a dream within a dream
As I stood facing the end of day
I felt love whisper in my ear

Within every single moment
Within every whimsical stage
I heard the leaves whirl and wind whistle
I am still dreaming

When you come to know and realize love
This illusion vanishes like a dream in the night

After a timeless period that flows again and again
Where space and time are nowhere I will awake

Bleary-eyed

Rich Love — Sun, 08 Jun 2008 22:16:11 +0000

I’m openly confused and bleary-eyed
I’m waiting for something bigger than myself
Diving for pearls and searching for freedom
Let me drown in the ocean of love

Evolve and awaken me from on High
Merge me with You keep love close
Give me a key to unlock closed doors
Let my soul forever soar

Stand up, reach out, hold on and listen for the call.

Everybody is saying

Rich Love — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 23:52:12 +0000

Everybody is saying
That there’s something wrong with me
But everybody is running
And they never move at all
Everyone is happy
Behind a veil of illusion
But someday from the fence they will fall
Everybody is saying
Without truly doing
Everybody is dreaming
Pointing fingers in blame
Just because I won’t play their game

This was written by an angry man (me) sitting in the psych ward. If we don’t begin listening instead of hearing the cries of the insane there will be endless tragedy within the world caused by the mentally ill.

Coming Back (Part Two)

Rich Love — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 23:26:20 +0000

My record’s bad, my love is sad
I long for you, I’m coming back

Coming back, coming back
Don’t you cry babe, I’m coming back

They locked me up for getting mad
So don’t you cry girl, I’m coming back

Coming back, coming back
Don’t you cry babe, I’m coming back

Girl, I’ll never lie as long as you’ll take me back
So don’t you cry my pet, I’m coming back

Hey babe, do you want me back
I need to know the real fact
Let me take you by the hand
Take you with me to see the band

(Bass solo)

Coming back, coming back
Don’t you cry babe, I’m coming back

My record’s bad, my love is mad
I long for you, I’m coming back
I believe you’ve been messing with a number of men
Don’t expect to see them again ’cause I’m coming back

Coming back, coming back, coming back

Too Close

Rich Love — Fri, 30 May 2008 01:10:37 +0000

I saw you holding him too close, too close
You had me believing you almost, almost

I’m not looking back on the shadows of the past
But sometimes, I’ll think of you and the love that was too last

Step back, won’t you please your too close
You were my first love and now your back, back again
In the beginning we were shining that made us close
But after a while I could see the rain and the end

I’m not going to follow you through the shadows of the past
I like it the way it is not too close not too fast