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::: Deconstructing A Mask Of Fear :::
Falling down again
Slipping on my own two feet
Time to get out on the streets
Doubt and non-action
hammer in my head
Layers of hypocritical dimensia
choke me with lead
No more coke, meat or lies
Sick of feeling like high tide
This constant battle
usually diffused by weed
engages itself so prominently
Soaking in dread and self-loathing
I need a good scolding
Relax and Breathe
Unleash this hateful beast
and give it some water to drink
Cool its heat with Tiger Balm
And kiss it with lips tingled by Burts Bees
Soothe the sting with Hydrogen Peroxide
Watch it bubble away
into an insoluble grey
Anatomy lessons of pain
bruised by the mind’s ever critical eye
Accept imperfection
And sigh.
Been walking aimlessly through life
Not getting the pilgrimage right
No more suckers on the front line
Needing some 69 that doesn’t
waste my time
A referendum of clocks
unraveling themselves into
when the time is right.
Pleasure adorned with
forced giggles and
muffled scorn
Mind and body torn
Candid snapshots of
immortal happiness
A clockwork of empty matter.
Be the dream you think you see
Find out what sets you free
Breathe deep
Save face
Go at life hard
and bring some mace.
Okay
On a mission
A new rendition
The me I’ve been longing to be.
Fast, steady, sturdy
At times a little dirty
Sensing my priorities
Divine, lustful, witty
I’ll stroke you like a kitty
My eyes are bespectacled with mystery.
Finesse, height and frosting
I’ll eat my cake at your costing
And you will see the benevolence
held back for free.
Alright
Set it straight
Fight the good fight
This time get it right
Walk through that door of insecurity
And see.
Let down that hair girl
Unravel into your core
Orgasm and soar
Feel the ground beneath my feet
Feel my lips part to speak
Stop delaying on the path to g-d
Open your heart
See it evolve
A gradual spiral
The pursuit of Mindy
Eat that fear
Swallow it whole
Digest it
And shit it out
Motherf*cker
That’s right
I want to devour my fear
Fear of what I can’t quite hear
Fear of hibernating in these tears.
Chew on that inner voice that brings me down
Always leaving in its place a frown
Stifle, strangle murder
that voice disguised as reason
This dualism in my head
This time I need the truth instead
Sick of seeing this fear win
Year after
year after
year after
Year.
Fear-the enemy of love
It feeds on itself like a cancer cell.
I want to suck out my blood and
inject it intravenously into Bush’s veins.
I am my own anti-Bush campaign
Bush gives devil a new name
Whores out America with his quest of shame
Bush America lives off fear
Disgraces any thread of decent
political history the U.S. has had and then
pisses on it while saying the pledge.
One hand on heart
one hand on dick
You can’t spell smart and
you speak like you’re six
Bitch, I’d sooner vote for Slick Rick
You make me Sick!
So!
F*ck you fear
This b*tch is here
Ready to claw, sever and sear
Unleashing the BOLD grandiose style
of womanhood
I will not sell out to a regime of terror
I say no to dead lies and fattened thighs
by white-bred, indecent American consumer hype.
Yo
This time I’m ripe with age
This dull painstaking ache will be relieved
gingerly
by dreams untold
By happiness never sold
My delectable soul
Unmasks itself
Into One.
Written by: ~ Mindy Hyman |
