::02:18:08::

::: So Cold :::

Dear God dear God
I feel so cold inside
mothers sick
the pain she feels
inside I cry
nothing I can do
lord I ask you why
all grown up
father passed
yet he's still alive
its easy to do evil
but raised to do good
living the fast life
the only way I know it should
the family struggles
and I’m caught up in my ways
as god as my witness
I will end these days
ill be asking for forgiveness
when I reach the pearly gates
god can only judge me
if its fate
its fate
holding it strong
but it cant last too long
back N forth in my head
its a mental debate
so at the moment
I smile
a lil while
hopin that its not too late
hopin its not too late
so cold so cold so cold inside
mothers hurting in her eyes she cries
family struggles
it hurts it hurts
do what I need to do
for them to survive
so cold so cold so cold inside
we gone make it
til the day I die
to one day its gon be the death of me
all I can do is try, is try
kids are gone
life is looking maney man
another day another night
how much more can I stand
goin dumb with my n*ggas
hittin the bottle
blowin trees
is this the route
is this the plan for me
my thoughts I articulate
all I do is contemplate
how trivalations have brought me forth
so I soak it up
never giving up
throwing away the key
and locking up all the doors
these n*ggas be hatin
causing me to ride
I’m the only one
the only one that I can confide
day to day
3rd lanin in the bay
day dreamin
thinking is this really
really the way
feeling helpless and relentless
looking up at the sky
god please help with this
give me the strength to try
to get me out of this disposition
and transition
if its the end
give me the wings and ill fly
block n*ggas
block figgas
we all the same man
grindin for that dollar
so we can stand taller
than the next man
life is a game man
one day you here
and the next you gone man
mothers cry from children they loose
the children
from the life they choose man
blood shed
life dred
from a life with no bed man
you gotta be strong
whatever is the game plan
from the bottom to top
burbs to the block
keep faith we all gon eat man
you gots to look forward
and never look back
see what the future has
and not what the past has lacked
so I pass my strength
to my mom who needs it
raised me from a seed
and turn my back to
those that didn’t believe it
that id grow to be the man i am
struggling from the beginning
but making it to the end

Written by: ~ Diggs