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::: Consumed :::

Drunk on my own desires.
wonder the streets aimlessly in search of me
I’m in search of the me .

The me
I used to be and
the day before I became consumed with internal wars.

Many say it’s a fools spell.
Pastor say it’s the repercussions of sin
But I know its only emotional debt.

My sins stood before me reading my obituary
Laughing at the days pass when I thought I was
untouchable, infallible but always misunderstood.
My sins, my thorns in my side.

How have I gotten this far, this fast, this deep.
When did I, me make the stupid decision to be unrighteous.
Who’s idea was it to place lust in my path.
My sins, they laugh.

Consumed by doubt, pride
Desire and lust of my flesh.
I crave the touch, to feel, to sweat.
Liquid pleasures of romance left
a wicked mist of my transgressions upon my skins.

I want to do right.
I want to be blessed
I need to feel the presence of my Father.
and to know that He still loves me.

Flesh at war with spirit
I stay confused
I often wish for death
That I may cease to commit sin against my Beloved God.

But death does not appear only
conviction and guilt follows me day by day.
Reminding and playing reruns of my life gone astray.
Guilt is worse than sin.

I point to my heart
Here Father, Your Son and
Your Holy Spirit is where I long for you to be.
Love me.
Jesus please intercede on my behalf so that sin may cease to laugh.

Hold me
Forgive me
God of Love, Grace, Peace and Mercy
Forgive me

Written by: ~ Nikki Boom