I spoke with Travis tonight. Told him I might be in love with him. He’s the first person who’s ever validated me. If only Patrick could be a shell and I could insert Travis’s empathy, wisdom, and sensitivity into him. ‘Kurt is a very lucky man,’ I told Travis. And then I hung up the phone, after he hushed me with, ‘It was very brave of you to call.’ I sunk back into my blue chair and typed this single message of the day.