Author: ZharaBlue

HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME
WAS NOT OUR BEGINNING ENOUGH TO BLEED

DID YOU HAVE TO PROSECUTE YOUR CONTENTION
TO THE BITTER END
ARE YOU SUCH THE DEVOTED SERVANT
DID YOU HAVE TO FEIGN FRIEND

DID YOU TURN AWAY FROM YOURSELF
OR WAS IT ME
DID YOU FOLLOW THE RECEDING TIDE
OR DID YOU THROW YOURSELF INTO THE SEA

YOU SHOULDN?T HAVE LEFT QUESTIONS
FOR THESE ANSWERS YOU TOO NEED

I realize that I have spent my life running in cycles, trapped inside a matrix.
Spiraling away into oblivion.
What I did not know was that Oblivion is where I belong.
Who I am is who I’ve always been.
I just didn’t remember.
No wonder I felt so lost.
Being so far away from home, connections broken.
I had to make myself aware of the codes & codons.
I programmed myself with them, so that I could remember.
Confused yet?
So was I.
When your time comes you will know.

AWAKEN

YOU DONT KNOW WHO YOURE MESSING WITH
YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU JUST DID
YOU CHALLENGED ME TO TAKE YOU WHOLE

YOU COULDNT KNOW YOU WOULD LOSE YOUR SOUL

I TRIED TO WARN YOU BUT STILL YOU FEED
YOU WANT TO FILL YOUR VASTLY NEED
YOU ASKED ME IF I WOULD TAKE YOU HOME

YOU DIDNT KNOW YOU COULD LOSE YOUR SOUL

YOU HAVE AWAKEN

THAT LONG DENIED BEAST OF BURDEN
THAT FIRE BURNING
THAT WICKED GARDEN
YOU HAVE AWAKENED

THE KRAKEN

A LOTUS FLOWER INDEED
ILL BECOME
THE POWER IN ME WILL HEED
UNTIL WE BECOME
IN UNISON WITH THE ONE
FROM WHERE DESIRES ARE FROM

WE WILL AWAKEN

WE SHALL UNITE IN A FORTNIGHT
MIDNIGHT, MOONLIGHT
WE WILL UNITE ON THE BATTLE GROUNDS
OF TANTRIC INSIGHT
INSIDE YOULL COME AND REMISS
FOR YOULL NEVER FORGET
THE BEASTLY ENCUMBRANCE

YOU HAVE AWAKENED
THE KRAKEN

DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO ADMIT
THAT YOU’VE NEVER EVER BEEN LOVED
DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO CONVINCE
YOURSELF THERE’S STILL REASON TO GO ON

WHEN I WAS BORN
you fated me
HOW COULD ANYONE KNOW
you hated me
WHICH WAY MY LIFE WOULD GO
you had the control
WHEN I WAS BORN
you killed me
WHY DIDN’T ANYONE KNOW
you poisoned me
THAT I AM NO ONE’S FOE
you took your pain and spit it on me
WHY DID EVERYBODY BELIEVE
your lies about me
THAT I AM THE ENEMY
you took everything from me
WHEN ALL I EVER WANTED WAS LOVE
I NEVER BEHAVE MALICIOUSLY
no I leave that up to you
NOT A MALIGNANT BONE WITHIN ME
I was much too scared of you
BECAUSE ALL I’VE EVER DREAMED
you denied me
WAS TO BE
free
LOVED

In my minds eye I can feel you
In my own times I taste your beauty
In reflection I sense your ecstasy
If only you would free my captivity

I’ve longed for this moment
Through timeless hours
I’ve begged myself for license
For freedom of being

Will you be the one to dive into sea?

The universe has played the most devilish of tricks on me.
This is Karma on a grand scale, a significant hurdle on the path to highest destiny.
I have met and loved the man of my dreams.
I have lived and wept in his arms, this man from my dreams.
He is more then what I could have imagined and with him comes great pain.
He also embodies everything I loathe in a man.
What horrific irony!
He appears on the scene, seductive and determined, conquering aggressively.
He must have what he came for and what he does get he keeps.
He’s chained me up for I am bound by his rhapsody.
I just may declare that he is the first to whip me.
Such a sweet and fragile beauty he declares.
Surely I can trifle and yet go free.
At no time did he ever think that in my arms his heart he would leave.
Such a loss is far more then what he could take.
You see he’s traveled down this path before and in that past his soul did break.
He never dreamed that once again such feelings could be aroused within him.
He never dreamed that once again he would seek to dive in.
He stumbles thought the gates of time merging past and present, heaven and hell.
He begs for mercy then more then none, he begs to draw her well.
Insanity arrives and madness thrives at the thought of someone ringing her bell.
He collects himself and bids her adieu, if he’ll return she cannot tell.

It’s nice to say I love you when they’re gone
But priceless are the words when they’re at home
Time flies weather it’s fun or not
But know there is a precious gift which can’t be bought
When opportunity arises,
first and foremost give the attention before you are caught
In a whirlwind of grief and pain, sorrow and shame
Never forget there is not time for games
When it comes to love just as the father above
Let them know while the time is here
For you never know when the end draws near

On a dark and stormy day
From several blocks away
My eyes locked onto yours
This is destiny of course
Love at first sight or is it lust
Obsession really but the issue is trust
Inch-by-inch I drew closer and closer
There on the mountain dew meets the joker

Why won’t you help me
It’s your love I need to bleed

Instantly I am latched like a leach on a thigh
I never knew you could take me so high
Power and control are my major motivations
But something is released during mental ejaculation
You appeared at just the right time
I was standing on the edge of my mind
My training has taught me never to dive in
Something in your nature signals foe and friend

Why won’t you help me
This is obviously meant to be

This is one wild hot summer
I don’t know if I will wake from this slumber
Just lay down and let me enjoy my ride
I don’t care if your face you must hide
It’s your soul I want to keep
While you smother I wonder if you’ll wake from sleep
You have a fire that attracts my flame
You have a desire that brings me shame

Why won’t you help me
Why do you make me scream

How could you leave
My abuse is just your dream
You know we are meant to be
You just refuse to let your eyes see
I need your love to breathe
I can’t live it’s you I need
You know the hole that lives inside me
You know you can forgive my misdeeds

Why won’t you save me
Why don’t you love me

Early in the morning hours I called upon his name.
Immediately fear fled from me,
it was a dark and formless shape.
Later in the daylight hours upon the wind he came.
There were creatures flying round about singing of his praise.
The electricity in the air did seem to touch upon my brain.
The energy of the moment certainly fine tuned my waves.
The trees gently swayed as he whispered in my ear.
It’s springtime, sunshine, fulfillment is near.

You must guard your heart, your most precious commodity.
For out of it breathes your life, but if damaged how deeply you may bleed.
Should such a thing occur then only time would mend.
In the interim you are left vacant, vulnerable, no one can defend.
The lasting mark of a lonely, loveless heart, is one you must hope not to find.
For if you do then woe unto you,
Perhaps in death you may part.