FREESTYLEVISION

I AM SORRY FOR MY IGNORANCE, MISCHIEF AND MISTRUST
I TOOK FOR GRANTED THE ABUNDANT GIFTS PROVIDED
OMNIPOTENT, OMNIPRESENT NEVER FAILING LOVE
I TURNED AWAY TIME AND AGAIN LOOKING FOR NEW SOLUTIONS TO BEGIN
BUT THAT FEAR THAT HAUNTS US ALL IS HERE
AND I HESITATED, PROCRASTINATED
THE BEGINNING OF THE END

THE PROBLEMS OF THE PAST HAVE BLINDED ME TIL NOW
WITH THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD ON OUR SHOULDERS
I OFTEN GOT LOST IN THE KNOW AND THE HOW
MY SORROWS HAVE DROWNED ME MANY TIMES ON COUNTLESS DAYS
CONCEIT DRIVING ME TO DISHARMONY, DISUNITY, ANARCHY, MALAISE
I AM SORRY FOR MY UNFAITHFULNESS, DISOBEDIENCE AND TRIFLE WAYS
I AM SORRY FOR MY BASENESS
FOR THE FORGETTING OF
THE WAY

Don’t ask me what’s wrong
I’ll always tell you nothing
Don’t ask me what I’ve seen
Don’t ask where I have been.
Don’t take it the wrong way
Don’t think I am mean
but I’m full of pain
and it’s running all through me.

It’s makin’ me crazy
It’s makin’ me cold
I get so unnerved
and I am feeling so old.
Don’t take this the wrong way
I am still young in age
but my life’s been so wrong
I am so full of rage.

Sometimes I can look back
and see what I have done
but I still see so much
where I wasn’t the one.
Don’t take this the wrong way
I am responsible
but I can’t control
actions of other people.

I know where I’m going
I know where I’ve been
and I know there’s now way
I’ll choose that way again.
don’t take that the wrong way
my life’s not my own
but I know I’m loved
and I Know I am at home.

Love is within me
it’s what gives me life
it’s the reason I’m breathing
it’s how my darkness is light.

I NEED YOU

TO BE CLOSE TO ME
THE WAY YOU LIKE TO BE

BE YOU
BE FREE
WITH ME
WITH ME BEING ME

I NEED YOU TO BE CLOSE TO ME THE WAY I LIKE YOU TO BE
THE WAY YOU LIKE IT WITH ME
THE WAY YOU TOUCH ME
KISS ME
TASTE ME
DIVE INTO ME
BREATHE INTO ME

YOU SCARE ME

I NEED THE WAY YOU TALK TO ME
SPEAK THE TRUTH BOLDLY YET GENTLY
IN THIS WAY YOU TEACH ME

YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY

ACCEPT ME, FORGIVE ME

YOU SEE
JUST BY YOU BEING YOU
YOU NOURISH ME
WHAT YOU GIVE
IS MORE THEN I EVER RECEIVED
IM SURE YOU UNDERSTAND
NO OTHER CAN DO WHAT YOU DO FOR ME
NO OTHER CAN BE YOU
NOR WHAT YOU ARE TO ME
YOU ARE UNIQUE

I SEE NOW THAT THIS IS HOW IT HAS TO BE

SO FEEL FREE TO BE WITH ME
IN ME
BESIDE ME
BEHIND ME
ON ME
AROUND ME
ENVELOPE ME
CARESS ME

FOR THIS MY SWEET HELPS ME
TO LOVE
TO BE ME
TO BE FREE
AND IF THAT MEANS YOU MUST LEAVE
BY ALL MEANS FEEL FREE
BUT,
RETURN TO ME
BE CLOSE TO ME
THE WAY YOU LIKE TO BE
THE WAY I LIKE YOU TO BE

YOU TOUCH ME

KISS ME
TASTE ME
DIVE INTO ME
BREATHE INTO ME
SCARE ME
TALK TO ME
TEACH ME
DRIVE ME CRAZY

ACCEPT ME AS I DO YOU
FORGIVE ME AS I DO YOU
FOR JUST BEING YOU
PROVIDES FOR ME

THIS IS ALL I ASK OF YOU FOREST
DONT ASK TOO MUCH OF ME

DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN?

DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO ADMIT
THAT YOU’VE NEVER EVER BEEN LOVED
DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO CONVINCE
YOURSELF THERE’S STILL REASON TO GO ON

WHEN I WAS BORN
you fated me
HOW COULD ANYONE KNOW
you hated me
WHICH WAY MY LIFE WOULD GO
you had the control
WHEN I WAS BORN
you killed me
WHY DIDN’T ANYONE KNOW
you poisoned me
THAT I AM NO ONE’S FOE
you took your pain and spit it on me
WHY DID EVERYBODY BELIEVE
your lies about me
THAT I AM THE ENEMY
you took everything from me
WHEN ALL I EVER WANTED WAS LOVE
I NEVER BEHAVE MALICIOUSLY
no I leave that up to you
NOT A MALIGNANT BONE WITHIN ME
I was much too scared of you
BECAUSE ALL I’VE EVER DREAMED
you denied me
WAS TO BE
free
LOVED

In my minds eye I can feel you
In my own times I taste your beauty
In reflection I sense your ecstasy
If only you would free my captivity

I’ve longed for this moment
Through timeless hours
I’ve begged myself for license
For freedom of being

Will you be the one to dive into sea?

The universe has played the most devilish of tricks on me.
This is Karma on a grand scale, a significant hurdle on the path to highest destiny.
I have met and loved the man of my dreams.
I have lived and wept in his arms, this man from my dreams.
He is more then what I could have imagined and with him comes great pain.
He also embodies everything I loathe in a man.
What horrific irony!
He appears on the scene, seductive and determined, conquering aggressively.
He must have what he came for and what he does get he keeps.
He’s chained me up for I am bound by his rhapsody.
I just may declare that he is the first to whip me.
Such a sweet and fragile beauty he declares.
Surely I can trifle and yet go free.
At no time did he ever think that in my arms his heart he would leave.
Such a loss is far more then what he could take.
You see he’s traveled down this path before and in that past his soul did break.
He never dreamed that once again such feelings could be aroused within him.
He never dreamed that once again he would seek to dive in.
He stumbles thought the gates of time merging past and present, heaven and hell.
He begs for mercy then more then none, he begs to draw her well.
Insanity arrives and madness thrives at the thought of someone ringing her bell.
He collects himself and bids her adieu, if he’ll return she cannot tell.

It’s nice to say I love you when they’re gone
But priceless are the words when they’re at home
Time flies weather it’s fun or not
But know there is a precious gift which can’t be bought
When opportunity arises,
first and foremost give the attention before you are caught
In a whirlwind of grief and pain, sorrow and shame
Never forget there is not time for games
When it comes to love just as the father above
Let them know while the time is here
For you never know when the end draws near

On a dark and stormy day
From several blocks away
My eyes locked onto yours
This is destiny of course
Love at first sight or is it lust
Obsession really but the issue is trust
Inch-by-inch I drew closer and closer
There on the mountain dew meets the joker

Why won’t you help me
It’s your love I need to bleed

Instantly I am latched like a leach on a thigh
I never knew you could take me so high
Power and control are my major motivations
But something is released during mental ejaculation
You appeared at just the right time
I was standing on the edge of my mind
My training has taught me never to dive in
Something in your nature signals foe and friend

Why won’t you help me
This is obviously meant to be

This is one wild hot summer
I don’t know if I will wake from this slumber
Just lay down and let me enjoy my ride
I don’t care if your face you must hide
It’s your soul I want to keep
While you smother I wonder if you’ll wake from sleep
You have a fire that attracts my flame
You have a desire that brings me shame

Why won’t you help me
Why do you make me scream

How could you leave
My abuse is just your dream
You know we are meant to be
You just refuse to let your eyes see
I need your love to breathe
I can’t live it’s you I need
You know the hole that lives inside me
You know you can forgive my misdeeds

Why won’t you save me
Why don’t you love me

Early in the morning hours I called upon his name.
Immediately fear fled from me,
it was a dark and formless shape.
Later in the daylight hours upon the wind he came.
There were creatures flying round about singing of his praise.
The electricity in the air did seem to touch upon my brain.
The energy of the moment certainly fine tuned my waves.
The trees gently swayed as he whispered in my ear.
It’s springtime, sunshine, fulfillment is near.

You must guard your heart, your most precious commodity.
For out of it breathes your life, but if damaged how deeply you may bleed.
Should such a thing occur then only time would mend.
In the interim you are left vacant, vulnerable, no one can defend.
The lasting mark of a lonely, loveless heart, is one you must hope not to find.
For if you do then woe unto you,
Perhaps in death you may part.