I’VE BEEN STRIPPED DOWN
I’VE BEEN MISUSED
BEEN DAMAGED
BROKEN
BELITTLED AND CONFUSED
BEEN LIED TO
BEEN OPPRESSED
I HAVE BEEN BEATEN
BEEN STRESSED
AND THROUGH IT ALL I HAVE GAINED
THE STRENGTH I NEED JUST TO MAINTAIN
HOW CAN I DENY WHERE I HAVE BEEN
I CAN NOT DENY WHAT I’VE SEEN
I WILL NOT DENY WHAT I KNOW
I’LL NEVER DENY WHAT I’VE BEEN TOLD
THIS IS THE BEGINNING FOR ME
A TIME OF RENEWAL
I’M SET FREE
MY TIME TO BE LOVED FAITHFULLY
THE TIME TO BE NURTURED
OH YES
BY ME!!!
The lack of preparation for a final onslaught has cost me dearly.
I have fought the fine fight and lost the battle over my heart.
The failure in my defense is and always has been my weakest link,
the ever loving ever-lasting deeply soulful Purple Heart.
Many times I have obtained this badge of honor.
Unfortunately however I receive no glory with its reward.
To love and be loved is my holy grail.
This noble quest does elude me much like the precious elixir of life escapes the notice of modern man.
It is my own blood that has been derived from that of the phoenix and the dragon.
It is my own love that is the pearl hidden within my wine.
Once it spills the secrets revealed can no longer be hidden to the mysterious merchant,
who has drank of the waters.
All at once I am everything and nothing, blissful oblivion.
If I am fortunate enough to encounter the kindred then I too am infused with the light of life.
In my beloveds arms I both release and receive.
In the darkest of nights on the fullest of moons the most powerful of energies stirs amid the spring.
What has once died in the cold of winter is born again in the warmth of the May sun.
Alchemical creations gesticulate in the electrical conduits of time and space.
You have crossed many oceans in search of this moment and I have sailed seventy seas.
Now that my hearts eye has been opened I can no longer see.
For this dark merchant a warrior of roads must, proceed with his destiny.
Through the long and winding roads he bleeds.
This wanderer has plans his goals he must inevitably feed.
When he passes through this caldron again he will inevitably be drawn to pass through me.
Why must you torture me?
If only you would see how,
in me we could feel so complete.
You long for me as I lust for life.
It is as though your inner voice is
calling you to lesser speeds.
Abandon your reticence,
taste the desires you breed.
Give way to passion.
Accept the gift of bliss I give.
Be what is required to transcend all barriers
to your dreams.
I need your flame.
You don’t need any Prozac because you already have me
You bleed me in whole, pump me through your veins and then you begin to feel free In those moments of ecstasy you take all that you feel you need You make the most of your vacation then go back to where you vowed to be
So you seek your narcotic you take three doses and you are released From the bond that is your pain as you love high all night till dawn comes again You fight back the tears as you withdraw until your next phase In the sunlight you feel me as you see the power of your nights stay
Pipes and powders needles for veins give you no illusion of change From the bond that is your soul which mates with one who dominates by hate Of all your powers and your passion your love your world all you create So you use a substitute in the hope that it will help you all maintain
So you seek your narcotic you take three doses and you are released From the bond that is your pain as you love high all night till dawn comes again You fight back the tears as you withdraw until your next phase In the sunlight you feel me as you see the power of your nights stay
The bottle drowns no sorrow for you it only dulls your magnetic force Which coerces you through town and throws you at the front of my very door In your drunken state you fear all that you’ve every dreamed and more All whom you hold dear your fear you’ve let them down and thrown to the floor
So you seek your narcotic you take three doses and you are released From the bond that is your pain as you love high all night till dawn comes again You fight back the tears as you withdraw until your next phase In the sunlight you feel me as you see the power of your nights stay.
You must guard your heart, your most precious commodity.
For out of it breathes your life, but if damaged how deeply you may bleed.
Should such a thing occur then only time would mend.
In the interim you are left vacant, vulnerable, no one can defend.
The lasting mark of a lonely, loveless heart, is one you must hope not to find.
For if you do then woe unto you,
Perhaps in death you may part.
Early in the morning hours I called upon his name.
Immediately fear fled from me,
it was a dark and formless shape.
Later in the daylight hours upon the wind he came.
There were creatures flying round about singing of his praise.
The electricity in the air did seem to touch upon my brain.
The energy of the moment certainly fine tuned my waves.
The trees gently swayed as he whispered in my ear.
It’s springtime, sunshine, fulfillment is near.
On a dark and stormy day
From several blocks away
My eyes locked onto yours
This is destiny of course
Love at first sight or is it lust
Obsession really but the issue is trust
Inch-by-inch I drew closer and closer
There on the mountain dew meets the joker
Why won’t you help me
It’s your love I need to bleed
Instantly I am latched like a leach on a thigh
I never knew you could take me so high
Power and control are my major motivations
But something is released during mental ejaculation
You appeared at just the right time
I was standing on the edge of my mind
My training has taught me never to dive in
Something in your nature signals foe and friend
Why won’t you help me
This is obviously meant to be
This is one wild hot summer
I don’t know if I will wake from this slumber
Just lay down and let me enjoy my ride
I don’t care if your face you must hide
It’s your soul I want to keep
While you smother I wonder if you’ll wake from sleep
You have a fire that attracts my flame
You have a desire that brings me shame
Why won’t you help me
Why do you make me scream
How could you leave
My abuse is just your dream
You know we are meant to be
You just refuse to let your eyes see
I need your love to breathe
I can’t live it’s you I need
You know the hole that lives inside me
You know you can forgive my misdeeds
Why won’t you save me
Why don’t you love me
It’s nice to say I love you when they’re gone
But priceless are the words when they’re at home
Time flies weather it’s fun or not
But know there is a precious gift which can’t be bought
When opportunity arises,
first and foremost give the attention before you are caught
In a whirlwind of grief and pain, sorrow and shame
Never forget there is not time for games
When it comes to love just as the father above
Let them know while the time is here
For you never know when the end draws near
The universe has played the most devilish of tricks on me.
This is Karma on a grand scale, a significant hurdle on the path to highest destiny.
I have met and loved the man of my dreams.
I have lived and wept in his arms, this man from my dreams.
He is more then what I could have imagined and with him comes great pain.
He also embodies everything I loathe in a man.
What horrific irony!
He appears on the scene, seductive and determined, conquering aggressively.
He must have what he came for and what he does get he keeps.
He’s chained me up for I am bound by his rhapsody.
I just may declare that he is the first to whip me.
Such a sweet and fragile beauty he declares.
Surely I can trifle and yet go free.
At no time did he ever think that in my arms his heart he would leave.
Such a loss is far more then what he could take.
You see he’s traveled down this path before and in that past his soul did break.
He never dreamed that once again such feelings could be aroused within him.
He never dreamed that once again he would seek to dive in.
He stumbles thought the gates of time merging past and present, heaven and hell.
He begs for mercy then more then none, he begs to draw her well.
Insanity arrives and madness thrives at the thought of someone ringing her bell.
He collects himself and bids her adieu, if he’ll return she cannot tell.
In my minds eye I can feel you
In my own times I taste your beauty
In reflection I sense your ecstasy
If only you would free my captivity
I’ve longed for this moment
Through timeless hours
I’ve begged myself for license
For freedom of being
Will you be the one to dive into sea?
