Defining the undefined one post at a time.
Standing on the outside
looking in
hands holding strings
making moves
watching
but
not participating
day in
day out
nights blending
into
each other
on and on
it goes
on and on
this life
flows
never ending
never ceasing
movements weakening
one by one
they disappeared
now alone
standing on the outside
looking in
fading
away
©copyright 4/28/2014 catherine anne hayes
I search
to find memories
of love
between my mother
and I
and
not let
the harangued remembrances
corrupt
It is very
hard
The bad ones
interfere
too much
I long
I need
to remember her
with love
I know
there were
some
good times
They are
like precious pearls
Lucent
suffused memories
I do love her
but
I am
still
choked
in pain
Frozen inside
an important
part
of me
The need
to protect
myself
is so
strong
yet
the binds that
choke me
are
becoming
tighter
Squeezing me
Squeezing the breath
out of me
Squeezing the heart
out of me
Squeezing my soul out
My pain is too much
The binds must be shorn
before
I break
Must find a way
to sever them
The key
is my memories
Memories
of her
My mother
Remembering
the good
Remembering
no matter what
she
did love me
Life
is not perfect
Healing
is in
forgiving
Can I forgive?
Is it
in me to?
I think so
It resides
in the memories
The memories of love
© copyright 5/22/2014 catherine anne hayes
You know me
We met a million lifetimes ago
Don’t I seem a little familiar
I was your handmade Pinocchio
The world was spinning out of control
I had to come and find you
Thank God we got back in time
Looked like the end was long overdue
When I look into yours eyes
I see myself beside the fire
And if I fall into the clouds
You pull me out with your desire
You know me
We met a billion lifetimes ago
Don’t I seem a little too familiar
I was your handmade Pinocchio
When I look into yours eyes
I see myself beside the fire
And if I fall into the clouds
You pull me out with your desire
You know me.
If I saw you again would you love me for real
Could we ever forgive our wrongs and shady past
If so, I’ll meet you again where the river ends
This dream has been broken my good old friends (Ah)
If we take our time I’m sure we all could begin, again
To love one another, I’d bet it all and much more
Never looking back unless we needed a lesson
Always moving forward in search of a blessing (Ah)
Some people say dreams are just dreams
But dreams are what we’re all made of
And this world would’ve never had been (Pause)
The sound of singing angels have fulfilled my ears
And there’s no one to blame for the loss of our garden
‘Cause the Lord has given us another golden gate
And all of His people can be restored without hate (Ah)
Some people say that dreams are just dreams
But dreams are what we’re all made of
And this world would’ve never had been
(Ah – This dream has been broken)
She came to me in a dream
She comes from beyond she is Supreme
She knows I love her and she loves me
She displays nothing and know everything
Mother Anna I need ya forever
Mother Anna come back home to me
Mother Anna let me see that angel smile
Mother Anna I’ll be right here
She moves in the shadows of the night
She is the rainbow of the light
She knows your suffering and pain
Her Father’s will is not in vain
Mother Anna I want ya forever
Mother Anna you never left my heart
Mother Anna let me hear that angel’s laugh
Mother Anna I’m staying right here
Ku-fan-ku,
Mindless mind, eternal sight,
Pedigree pulp of all in no-time,
The red ants remind me of first love,
Where I walk upon the broken stones
And know all things without thought.
My body is the universe my mind has made.
Ku-fan-ku, I give thanks up to what
At last, is me.
The sun is our healer-cauldron of life,
And this brook flows with tears of the
Great Forest;
Let us be quieter than
The whispers of summer nights.
Out of nowhere
My love did grow
It finally took control
It turned me inside out
Do you need me around
Could you use my help
Maybe we can start over
Climb this mountain together
Shake the ground we stand over
Meet the new day forever
Do you want me around
Would you use my help
Let’s brave the weather
Face this world together
Take our dream further
Maybe we’re better together
Do you need me around
Could you use my help
Out of nowhere
My love did grow
It finally took control
It turned me inside out
One ’s self is what matters most, a rule with no exception.
And this generation here has gone far with that perception.
This is an I nation you can hear it in their songs.
It is established in their demeanor with no intent on being wrong.
I have this, I have that, I am this, I am that.
The world revolves around me and that is the way that I act.
There is no sense of unity.
Where is the We.
Because all my lyrics consist of I, he, or me.
Music use to speak for more than just one soul.
It use to be the voice of the people with more than just one goal.
Stop war, stop poverty, stop corruption, stop anarchy.
We can change the world with these songs if you just believe.
And awareness use to be the key.
But now every song is strictly about me.
When you come
I will be here
To hold your hand
And always be near (forever)
Please don’t be long
I’m ready to begin
To share our love
And be your friend (forever)
If you don’t come
I will never be the same
But I believe in something
That true love is no game (and our love will last forever)
Unfold our story Lord
Give us the strength to fly
Far beyond the city lights
And deep within Your eternal eye
The ocean flows
Through us all
Love never neglects
A waterfall
***Awesome friends always and forever – I LOVE YOU ANNA!
In the beginning, Eve was Adam’s shadow and now eons later, Anna is my shadow soon to manifest true love around the world.
It was a long time ago
We were far away
I kept all our dreams
Together in a jar
I knew this day would come
But no one believed my words
Then the sun melted away
And I had to wait another day
Got caught up in the system
Got covered up in the lie
Now I’m poking the monster
With my angels on high
For twenty years
They said Einstein was nuts
I know how he must have felt
Only a few could imagine
I feel like King David
Got my slingshot in hand
Gonna take it all down
And then build it up (With HIS grace)
Got caught up in the system
Got covered up in the lie
Now I’m poking the monster
With my angels on high