Category: Penman Lounge

I’VE BEEN STRIPPED DOWN
I’VE BEEN MISUSED
BEEN DAMAGED
BROKEN
BELITTLED AND CONFUSED
BEEN LIED TO
BEEN OPPRESSED
I HAVE BEEN BEATEN
BEEN STRESSED
AND THROUGH IT ALL I HAVE GAINED
THE STRENGTH I NEED JUST TO MAINTAIN
HOW CAN I DENY WHERE I HAVE BEEN
I CAN NOT DENY WHAT I’VE SEEN
I WILL NOT DENY WHAT I KNOW
I’LL NEVER DENY WHAT I’VE BEEN TOLD
THIS IS THE BEGINNING FOR ME
A TIME OF RENEWAL
I’M SET FREE
MY TIME TO BE LOVED FAITHFULLY
THE TIME TO BE NURTURED
OH YES
BY ME!!!

The lack of preparation for a final onslaught has cost me dearly.
I have fought the fine fight and lost the battle over my heart.
The failure in my defense is and always has been my weakest link,
the ever loving ever-lasting deeply soulful Purple Heart.
Many times I have obtained this badge of honor.
Unfortunately however I receive no glory with its reward.
To love and be loved is my holy grail.
This noble quest does elude me much like the precious elixir of life escapes the notice of modern man.
It is my own blood that has been derived from that of the phoenix and the dragon.
It is my own love that is the pearl hidden within my wine.
Once it spills the secrets revealed can no longer be hidden to the mysterious merchant,
who has drank of the waters.
All at once I am everything and nothing, blissful oblivion.
If I am fortunate enough to encounter the kindred then I too am infused with the light of life.
In my beloveds arms I both release and receive.
In the darkest of nights on the fullest of moons the most powerful of energies stirs amid the spring.
What has once died in the cold of winter is born again in the warmth of the May sun.
Alchemical creations gesticulate in the electrical conduits of time and space.
You have crossed many oceans in search of this moment and I have sailed seventy seas.
Now that my hearts eye has been opened I can no longer see.
For this dark merchant a warrior of roads must, proceed with his destiny.
Through the long and winding roads he bleeds.
This wanderer has plans his goals he must inevitably feed.
When he passes through this caldron again he will inevitably be drawn to pass through me.

Why must you torture me?
If only you would see how,
in me we could feel so complete.
You long for me as I lust for life.
It is as though your inner voice is
calling you to lesser speeds.

Abandon your reticence,
taste the desires you breed.
Give way to passion.
Accept the gift of bliss I give.
Be what is required to transcend all barriers
to your dreams.

I need your flame.

You don’t need any Prozac because you already have me
You bleed me in whole, pump me through your veins and then you begin to feel free In those moments of ecstasy you take all that you feel you need You make the most of your vacation then go back to where you vowed to be

So you seek your narcotic you take three doses and you are released From the bond that is your pain as you love high all night till dawn comes again You fight back the tears as you withdraw until your next phase In the sunlight you feel me as you see the power of your nights stay

Pipes and powders needles for veins give you no illusion of change From the bond that is your soul which mates with one who dominates by hate Of all your powers and your passion your love your world all you create So you use a substitute in the hope that it will help you all maintain

So you seek your narcotic you take three doses and you are released From the bond that is your pain as you love high all night till dawn comes again You fight back the tears as you withdraw until your next phase In the sunlight you feel me as you see the power of your nights stay

The bottle drowns no sorrow for you it only dulls your magnetic force Which coerces you through town and throws you at the front of my very door In your drunken state you fear all that you’ve every dreamed and more All whom you hold dear your fear you’ve let them down and thrown to the floor

So you seek your narcotic you take three doses and you are released From the bond that is your pain as you love high all night till dawn comes again You fight back the tears as you withdraw until your next phase In the sunlight you feel me as you see the power of your nights stay.

It’s nice to say I love you when they’re gone
But priceless are the words when they’re at home
Time flies weather it’s fun or not
But know there is a precious gift which can’t be bought
When opportunity arises,
first and foremost give the attention before you are caught
In a whirlwind of grief and pain, sorrow and shame
Never forget there is not time for games
When it comes to love just as the father above
Let them know while the time is here
For you never know when the end draws near

The universe has played the most devilish of tricks on me.
This is Karma on a grand scale, a significant hurdle on the path to highest destiny.
I have met and loved the man of my dreams.
I have lived and wept in his arms, this man from my dreams.
He is more then what I could have imagined and with him comes great pain.
He also embodies everything I loathe in a man.
What horrific irony!
He appears on the scene, seductive and determined, conquering aggressively.
He must have what he came for and what he does get he keeps.
He’s chained me up for I am bound by his rhapsody.
I just may declare that he is the first to whip me.
Such a sweet and fragile beauty he declares.
Surely I can trifle and yet go free.
At no time did he ever think that in my arms his heart he would leave.
Such a loss is far more then what he could take.
You see he’s traveled down this path before and in that past his soul did break.
He never dreamed that once again such feelings could be aroused within him.
He never dreamed that once again he would seek to dive in.
He stumbles thought the gates of time merging past and present, heaven and hell.
He begs for mercy then more then none, he begs to draw her well.
Insanity arrives and madness thrives at the thought of someone ringing her bell.
He collects himself and bids her adieu, if he’ll return she cannot tell.

In my minds eye I can feel you
In my own times I taste your beauty
In reflection I sense your ecstasy
If only you would free my captivity

I’ve longed for this moment
Through timeless hours
I’ve begged myself for license
For freedom of being

Will you be the one to dive into sea?

DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO ADMIT
THAT YOU’VE NEVER EVER BEEN LOVED
DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO CONVINCE
YOURSELF THERE’S STILL REASON TO GO ON

WHEN I WAS BORN
you fated me
HOW COULD ANYONE KNOW
you hated me
WHICH WAY MY LIFE WOULD GO
you had the control
WHEN I WAS BORN
you killed me
WHY DIDN’T ANYONE KNOW
you poisoned me
THAT I AM NO ONE’S FOE
you took your pain and spit it on me
WHY DID EVERYBODY BELIEVE
your lies about me
THAT I AM THE ENEMY
you took everything from me
WHEN ALL I EVER WANTED WAS LOVE
I NEVER BEHAVE MALICIOUSLY
no I leave that up to you
NOT A MALIGNANT BONE WITHIN ME
I was much too scared of you
BECAUSE ALL I’VE EVER DREAMED
you denied me
WAS TO BE
free
LOVED

I NEED YOU

TO BE CLOSE TO ME
THE WAY YOU LIKE TO BE

BE YOU
BE FREE
WITH ME
WITH ME BEING ME

I NEED YOU TO BE CLOSE TO ME THE WAY I LIKE YOU TO BE
THE WAY YOU LIKE IT WITH ME
THE WAY YOU TOUCH ME
KISS ME
TASTE ME
DIVE INTO ME
BREATHE INTO ME

YOU SCARE ME

I NEED THE WAY YOU TALK TO ME
SPEAK THE TRUTH BOLDLY YET GENTLY
IN THIS WAY YOU TEACH ME

YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY

ACCEPT ME, FORGIVE ME

YOU SEE
JUST BY YOU BEING YOU
YOU NOURISH ME
WHAT YOU GIVE
IS MORE THEN I EVER RECEIVED
IM SURE YOU UNDERSTAND
NO OTHER CAN DO WHAT YOU DO FOR ME
NO OTHER CAN BE YOU
NOR WHAT YOU ARE TO ME
YOU ARE UNIQUE

I SEE NOW THAT THIS IS HOW IT HAS TO BE

SO FEEL FREE TO BE WITH ME
IN ME
BESIDE ME
BEHIND ME
ON ME
AROUND ME
ENVELOPE ME
CARESS ME

FOR THIS MY SWEET HELPS ME
TO LOVE
TO BE ME
TO BE FREE
AND IF THAT MEANS YOU MUST LEAVE
BY ALL MEANS FEEL FREE
BUT,
RETURN TO ME
BE CLOSE TO ME
THE WAY YOU LIKE TO BE
THE WAY I LIKE YOU TO BE

YOU TOUCH ME

KISS ME
TASTE ME
DIVE INTO ME
BREATHE INTO ME
SCARE ME
TALK TO ME
TEACH ME
DRIVE ME CRAZY

ACCEPT ME AS I DO YOU
FORGIVE ME AS I DO YOU
FOR JUST BEING YOU
PROVIDES FOR ME

THIS IS ALL I ASK OF YOU FOREST
DONT ASK TOO MUCH OF ME

DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN?

Don’t ask me what’s wrong
I’ll always tell you nothing
Don’t ask me what I’ve seen
Don’t ask where I have been.
Don’t take it the wrong way
Don’t think I am mean
but I’m full of pain
and it’s running all through me.

It’s makin’ me crazy
It’s makin’ me cold
I get so unnerved
and I am feeling so old.
Don’t take this the wrong way
I am still young in age
but my life’s been so wrong
I am so full of rage.

Sometimes I can look back
and see what I have done
but I still see so much
where I wasn’t the one.
Don’t take this the wrong way
I am responsible
but I can’t control
actions of other people.

I know where I’m going
I know where I’ve been
and I know there’s now way
I’ll choose that way again.
don’t take that the wrong way
my life’s not my own
but I know I’m loved
and I Know I am at home.

Love is within me
it’s what gives me life
it’s the reason I’m breathing
it’s how my darkness is light.