Category: Penman Lounge

You see it cause I see it
but you don’t bother to stop and stare
cause to me its not fair
to you it maybe just a blare
to me its nothing rare

You was there I was there
I seen the pain when you ignored the pain it stood out in the cold dripping rain and till today I still remember the Wayne

You done it after I been done it
When you was doing it I was trying to maintain but I could let you go through it alone so rushed up like the blood in my veins and took your side and where we stood there together like bonnie and Clyde and in the end we still was there
Waiting…
Watching…
Staring…
But still could bear….
And till today we are still there cause we all know the struggle will never end

You came to me when you needed a friend and I was there you came to me when you needed some one to lean on and I gave my shoulder we was young but now were older and still together kissing and touches gives flash backs to one another oh boy remember when we went through it with your mother we had some good time and we had some bad but we succeeded and that’s in the past every one on the block said we wouldn’t last cause I was young and wild but that’s when I was a child your bother never liked me but look at us now we so close there no tearing us apart I known through elementary school and we is still cool lol (laughing out loud) just had a flash back of when we use to sneak in the pool old man Sam always gave of a chance like the time we stood out side under the moon and just danced most people say it was puppy love but it was the best of it I’m writing this to let you know I love you and I would do anything for you cause to me your my soul mate in your own words we go together like chicken on a plate.

She’s a beauty on the skin side she’s darkened on the inside she kneels and prays every day closing her eyes looking up at the sky she says to God you blessed me with a cures and I’m not sure if being born was worst you got me living a dream making everything look as it seems but deep down inside I feel unpleased knowing I’m living a worried dream so I ask of u to send me a guide of light in such a beam so I can have guide to find me in witch a way I can live life as me but not what every one wants me to be but as me , my self and I

Listeners shift attention to this smell:
Exploded tires are rubber siding for a shelter
plastic bags build bonfires

Down the block “smoke signals,”
Cry emaciated dogs for scraps limping

Competition cocks fight a frustrated crow
Servants “live-in” an outside kitchen; cooks for household
Flips flop on a painted concrete floor

Sniffing fake flowers
Makes us sneeze from the dust

Shelf of knickknack Jesus shrine
Maria-Hosep holds him just
A plastic automatic; little boy gun toy

His story is breeding
Listeners bear witness

Lives shred
Op-ed clippings
Ash rains
Terraces saturate the confetti shower of shell powder-body shock

Terminate the masquerade
Pudding body cotton family holy is the matrimony
Tobacco brother pallbearer plow the rice ceremony

“Piñata rain,” the milkfish comment as they nudge oyster structures
Confidence the mortar stacked to self-sufficient order
Built better than the fatal footbridges over ponds for fish
Broken by beat of boots and boys off boats
Born of pallet scraps and friction hands flicking off the ash
Born to break by drops in forecast

Clouds distort the cloud reflection
Pacific bleeds and puffs clouds everyday
Evaporating back to a saline state

Ships sailing
Even when the wind stops blowing

On a day when the wallpaper shone
preferable tones of uniform blue
green and the hottest white
I was walking

Even though the natives of this town might agree
that this alone should inject a fluid sense of serenity within me
time was rupturing

and the most outstanding feeling
was not unlike when you are going about your day
and coincidentally you approach an acquaintance

A light of recognition grows upon their face
which you attempt to imitate
they begin to wave a little
kindling affection

You realize they were looking
through you at the man
now brushing past your shoulder

You recoil from your peak
just before plummeting
to the rise of the sidewalk crack
your collected shell disassembles
entropic seabirds startle

Pausing at the overpass
I fish a pebble from my shoe

I throw rocks from above
a sign that illustrates such
(except it should look accidental)
beside the highway
buses substitute ladders and sometimes hoses
incandescent eyes follow
crates of chickens buckled in truckloads
where a body a vehicle

Feathers and fires fan
stretchers and cameras summoned
bodies shudder
Help is on the way

In my periphery an officer’s shadow interrupts the scene
He firmly grabs my shoulder lulling
It is not tomorrow yet
today I notice all the houses
built of brick.

Foul once again gang
In the good morning middle of the night
Known now that the base composed essentially of shhhh
and gestures of concealed projection
with purpose
meant for chosen few draped for
meaning sly villainous intent.
To convey as waxed mustache twisted during past times
I love to remind and explode
especially during awkward vibrations dancing in the limelight

Swallows ascend in plumes of smoke
their plumage grips smut
for no oil permits its resistance
they permeate nonesuch
from forth their suits no sweat
mere silt-colored sweaters

on the antennae when they meet
They make the sign of a t
then flee in the form of a flying v

the Tenant inside underneath
watches TV
does not see electricity does not
pay to view Sojourners’
Exodus Genesis Exodus

inside and under tenement rock
sensory membranes are battered lawn grass
to breathe here means to go blind
to adjust reception means to permit
transmission of pidgin language

no words just hunger no gestures
no songs but wings
mimicking the veins of the city
all that is leaving for far too many
not bombs but falling birds

it’s not You
rather how you will be
forgotten in beds of soil you turn
rich and rotten

every Sorry Thank you Please
erased of all our memories
anonymous feathers
formalities for stuffing our pillows
and we are all beaten cases
how we tried to find our fill
never meant by sense or will
for often said without a clue
what was meant by
how are you

Sometimes I wish I had the power
To set u free from her devour
It hurts me every time the thought crosses
But then again my heart won’t allow the truth to process
It can’t be me, denial is not in my system
We have the click, the bond, the groove, the rhythm
I believed u, I believe u, you’re confused, scared to choose
Left on a queen sized mattress in Harlem, I was afraid I would lose
A competition of affection, yet my love caressed your every ache and sore
My love couldn’t be embodied through word, even the public saw it for far more
You were too comfortable
Nestled in my heart, fell asleep in the warmth of my kiss
Occasionally seeing her, texting her while the curves of my body yearned for your lips
In love with two women
Some call you lucky, while others that know us both steer u my way
Knowing in the back of your mind that I am not here just for this present day
I try to be strong, even now, wiping away tears, yet u saw my pain
Embraced yet defaced I walk through your hood head held high yet sometimes I bare the feeling of shame
Cause she walks through this hood and they know, I don’t want the pity they secretly leak
I wonder if ill ever turn that corner and find myself a new street
I’m so afraid and alone, still feel your warmth on my sheets
Checkin my phone and its you when it rings
Not sure if I should pick up, I can’t resist this unknown thing
Counting the days although I don’t want us to be done
I wonder where we’ll stand when the baby comes.

KRS told us a time ago,
we must learn,
instead of street life,
the only knowledge earned,
or how much them sneaks cost,
and who got burned,
or how much them freaks cost,
now I’m concerned,
I discern,
our priorities mixed up,
fighting each other,
and at the same time,
now He’s out to get us,
signs of the Armageddon,
end of times,
its 3 sixes,
I’ll take my three wishes,
and kiss the sky,
hope to triumph over struggles,
if… I try…

Magnify my deepest lie and uncover what I’ve kept inside
Break through the thickest strides, the toughest barriers, the roughest rides
And hidden beneath the moon, farthest away from the sun
Lies the cobweb infested truth that I once thought was dead and passed overdone
Unlocked and unleashed, destined to repeat
Controlling the moves of both my mind and my feet
I’m weak
Weakened to the touch only one can provide
Invisible tears he fails to see yet they pour from my eyes
Silently I scream, afraid I might hear myself even once
Place the zipper back on my heart, its been accustomed to days, weeks, months…